Let it Begin...

We are only a few days into the new year and I can already feel the stress. I am officially 7 months post-op tomorrow and am excited for my progress however the whole process is starting over again, but for my left hip. I saw my OS yesterday, Dr. Scheid, and I am getting an MRI arthrogram and cortisone injection next Wednesday. The type and area of pain indicate a labral tear, something that I am all too familiar with, and he might want to have it arthroscopically evaluated first, see how it heals and then pursue a the LPAO if I continue to have problems. The part that worries me is that I tore cartilage in my right hip and both the scope and PAO were done the same day. I do not have the time to scope it, wait to heal, then more than likely do the PAO afterwards because I have school and training for the army and it makes it soo difficult to work around numerous operations expecially since I have spent the last year recovering from the right. The eerie thing about it all is that exactly one year ago next week I tore my labrum and ligaments in my right hip, which started this whole journey. I know this feeling all too well and would really like to have one surgery to fix it all and move on to recovery. I have to wait for the results to figure out when I will see the doc again, but I hope and pray that it can all be done at once. I hate playing the waiting game. I am just frustrated because I have moderate dysplasia in both hips and don't understand why he is approaching the left hip differently than the right.

Also, my boyfriend, Andrew, and I are taking some time apart because we have hit a really rough patch. I feel that when it rains it pours. Although I have postitive feelings for 2010, it is not starting out how I hoped. I love him very much, but I am not sure if we are going to be able to fix the damage at this point. I physcially can not take anymore stress and I just want to feel better again. All of this makes my depression worse and these are the moments when I doubt myself and I wonder if I will ever heal, or if anything could go right. Sometimes I wonder just how much more I can take.

Fortunately, I have some amazing hippie girls that are always there for support. I am so glad to see that Sabrina, Marcie and Courtney are doing well. Shelly goes in for her RPAO tomorrow and she is all our thoughts and prayers. Shelly also got engaged! Congrats girlie! At least she has something to look forward to and plan while she recovers.


Having the girls around and talking with Jen and Marcie via email and FB has made it easier. Its nice to bounce thoughts off others and get others support. I was just shocked about how my doc has decided to approach the left hip. I had prepared myself for just the LPAO at the end of the semester, not for a possible scope, MRI, etc.

Classes start next week and I have to get a lot finished before then. I have a lot on my mind and I hope that everything will work out...