It is currently in the wee hours of Tuesday, June 14th, 2011. I will be leaving for Boston in about 48 hours. In about 12 hours I will be taking my summer class finals early, leaving only a presentation to do tomorrow night. I really wish these courses would have been offered in the fall because the Professors were nice and the classes were pretty interesting. I took Criminal Law and Bankruptcy Law which only leaves 2 classes, I believe, for my Paralegal Certification. I am hoping to finish those in the fall on a part-time status and work full-time during the day. That is my goal anyway, barring any complications from surgery or recovery. I am fairly concerned about my left hip and shoulder because they are becoming more and more unstable from the burden they have taken. I am hoping PT, Dr. Millis & Maiers, and myself will be able to workout a plan to safeguard my other joints while my right hip/leg heal. I will hopefully find that out on Thursday during my pre-op, etc. I have an entire list of questions and have been adding to them as different things come to mind.
I have felt very overwhelmed lately with trying to finish classes (why I took summer classes, I don't know!), getting my apartment "recovery friendly" and all the last minute things that go on with traveling, etc. I have barely had any time to relax or do anything for myself. I desperately want a break and not one that involves my bones or a stay at a hospital. I have literally gone non-stop for over 2 years with 5 surgeries during that window. I have either been in school, working, recovering from surgery, surgery during breaks or during school, working full-time during breaks to pay for surgery, etc. There has been little or no down-time to relax and at this point I am desperate for some TLC. There has been no trips, weekend getaways, concerts, nothing. I so badly want some time off. I sit here with tears rolling down my face as I write because I feel so overwhelmed. I am trying to stay positive, but I know this is not the last surgery because my left hip still needs to be addressed. There has been so many moments in which I want to cancel and avoid this all together. I have my doubts that I can keep doing this. I am giving all I have just to keep it together and get everything accomplished in the next hours. I am just hoping that I get to enjoy some time in Boston before surgery on Monday. I am planning to meet up with Jill Thursday for a bite to eat and shopping on Newbury St. I hope that some company and cute shops will bring my spirits up.
You can do it Ashley! Unfortunately we are the unlucky ones that have to deal with surgeries or not be able to live a full life in the future. You still have so many years ahead of you that you will be able to enjoy after being "superwoman" for these few years. I hope you enjoy your time with Jill and that your recovery is quick.
ReplyDeleteThanks Sami! I hope that your recovery is going well and your gaining your strength and energy back. I am hoping this surgery helps, but I know that my hip will never be pain free because of all the damage that is already done. I am just hoping this helps.
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