Monday, May 25, 2009

2 Weeks and Counting...

Two weeks from today is my surgery and I feel like time is flying by too fast. Part of me is ready to get the surgery and recovery process going, but part of me is too scared to do anything at all. This past weekend was my little brother's high school graduation party and I realized since I have torn cartilage and the pain has increased, the things I enjoy doing have become much harder to partake in. Even small things like playing with younger cousins is difficult because I can not run or jump, squat or wrastle :) Even when I try, I later regret it because the pain becomes unbearable.

I am definitely ready to be back to "normal." I am getting restless and can not wait till I can run again. As active as I have been, the last few months have been like torture; watching others do all the things I can not do or are not allowed to do by doctor's orders. I have tried my best to get out and enjoy the beautiful weather, but the pain ends up limiting my activities and I am worn out by the end of the day. I hate having to take painkillers to sleep at night, so I am definitely ready for that to end! I have tried my best, but the last few months have been a struggle and I am ready to get back to all the things I love.

I have done all I can to get ready for the surgery. My room at my parents house is full of rehab equipment, movies and lots of extra pillows...my doc has answered all my questions, so I know of what is to come and feel a lot more prepared...but I am still terrified...

2 comments:

  1. Don't be terrified! Two weeks ago I felt exactly the same, amd now two weeks post-op, I realise that the waiting is definately the worst part. The surgery, and recovery, even the first few days, is really ok. Its very 'doable', and when I have my 2nd PAO I won't be scared at all.Just keep up with all the pain meds ,and you will be fine.
    Good luck
    Kate

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  2. Ashley,
    Great to see you this weekend and I feel bad that you felt bad you couldnt participate. I am praying for you and I will be sooooooo glad when your surgery is over and you can get quickly on the road to recovery. Hope Kate's experience is yours else well. Love you galpal....Aunt Dena

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