Stressed Hippie

I received the results from my ct scan at the beginning of the week...you know something is not right when you are called first thing Monday morning, when your scan was Friday and the message starts with "the doctor looked at the scan over the weekend" and all I was thinking was Oh Shit! I knew something wasn't right. The message continued with "the doc looked at the scan and believes that you have a stress fracture." Great, one more thing to deal with. On the bright side I did not have any larbral or ligament tears, so I just need more time to heal.

Next, I thought how did I sustain a fracture? I haven't been doing anything that the doctor hasn't approved. I have been doing physical therapy, stretching, resting with more pain and not trying to push my luck. I just feel that I have terrible luck or for a matter of fact, no luck at all. With the fracture news I am even more cautious to the point of paranoia that I am going to do something and my hip will shatter. I have been taking calcium supplements and have been doing anything I can to help heal. Maybe my body just heals slower. I just am afraid of ruining the surgery or having to start over. Another part of me thinks "will I ever heal?" "Will I have pain everyday?"

It is very frustrating to feel that I will never heal or that things are getting worse rather than better. I also have to remind myself that this was a major surgery and that it is going to take a long time to heal. I guess I am just going to have to swim more! I have been looking into a fitness membership at a gym with a pool and maybe some spinning and aquatic classes. I need to find some other motivation because running is going to be a lot farther down the rode. This is a long journey...just keep pushing!